| Expect to see more of me... | 2008-08-14 02:03:57EST |
 | At last - got myself a decent DSLR - as you can see from the photos it's a Pentax K20D. Now, I need to relearn some basic photography stuff and read the manual (270 pages long, argh) |
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| ..another year gone.. | 2007-01-17 08:10:44EST |
 | Another year gone and I haven't managed to do anything serious. Still alone, lost some good friends (life changes and they were suddenly gone, I don't know what happend...). We'll see how things go this year... |
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| ..I'm still here.. | 2006-03-08 11:09:18EST |
 | I'm still here, sadly there aren't any new photos yet, the money I've earned during the last few months had to be spent on other, more important things. Maybe this year after I get my engineering degree in IT I can get a better paid job. Let's hope for the best... |
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| ..still no luck.. | 2005-05-13 03:36:51EST |
 | Things aren't easy now, although I have a new job there's still no money for a new photo camera, so there'll be no more contributions from me for some time.
Life shold be a lot easier, but on the other side - if it would be easy it wouldn't be fun :) |
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| ..post Christmas depression.. | 2005-01-23 06:25:20EST |
 | And another Christmas has passed...
Still alone, still not knowing were to go.
I'm trying to look back, find something I could hold on, because somehow I can't trust in future, no it won't be better, whatever I'll do... |
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| ..idiot.. | 2004-11-04 17:45:41EST |
 | Yeah, that's the right word - idiot. I'm an idiot.
Why? Because I miss her, every day I must think how would it be if we could be together. Funny, I don't even know if we had already met or if we will ever meet.
The world is strange when out of love. There seems to be a black hole when my heart once was, and it drains all the power that I ever had.
I wonder how many years I have left, I don't want to give up, but I have a strange feeling that someday I will... |
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| ..wonderful places.. | 2004-09-23 17:01:34EST |
 | Could you go with me there on a cold winter night?
We would take a blanket, some red wine and our hearths to warm us up. There would be only the stars aboce us and no one else.
Please tell me, would you like to go? |
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| ..lonely.. | 2004-08-11 17:11:33EST |
 | I don't like it, I don't like sitting here in my room, I don't like being alone... |
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| ..everything changes.. | 2004-07-27 09:55:30EST |
 | Everything changes but not always in that direction as we would like it to change. Why do all the people I love must leave? Just a few years they say, but I don't think they'll be back... |
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| ..still in love.. | 2004-06-11 17:08:25EST |
 | [...]
In the dark pine-wood
I would we lay,
In deep cool shadow
At noon of day.
How sweet to lie there,
Sweet to kiss,
Where the great pine-forest
Enaisled is!
Thy kiss descending
Sweeter were
With a soft tumult
Of thy hair.
O unto the pine-wood
At noon of day
Come with me now,
Sweet love, away.
[...]
(James Joyce, Chamber Music)
Why do I always fall in love with the wrong person? I would like to throw my heart into the fire, just not to feel anymore. No more sorrow, but also no more happiness. I can't say if it would be worth the price, but still I'm tempted to try... |
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| ..at last.. | 2004-06-11 16:44:38EST |
 | ...I'm back,. something was wrong with my account password, but thankfully here's a bug in the registration process - you can register a second time with a new pass :P.. |
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| ..normal everyday carnage.. | 2004-04-03 13:57:25EST |
 | I've just lost another person I depend on.
After a year she just said "fuck off" and now I'm gone, sitting here and thinking - will I ever find someone just for me. I don't want more than just being friends - maybe that's too much.
I think of all the wonderful time we had together and now I should forget even about my memories...
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Lying on the floor,
Praying to the door,
Would you please open,
Make all my sorrows forgotten,
Take me far away from here,
Let my love dissapear...
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| ..nothing to do.. | 2004-03-19 16:53:13EST |
 | ..and still missing You..
..I want to take your hand and run together with you to the end of the world and some miles further..
..but You don't even seem to exist.. |
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| ..fear.. | 2004-03-15 05:53:25EST |
 | ..remember the days when everything seemed to be okay?
When we were running through the corn field, and suddenly you disappeared? I shouted "hey, don't leave me!" and you where there standing right before me with a smile on your face. I should have known that this smile wasn't for me... |
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| ..memories.. | 2004-03-15 02:08:11EST |
 | Looking through the window I can't find my peace,
Still missing you although you're so near... |
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| Just having fun... | 2004-03-11 15:13:20EST |
 | ...and cruisn't through the city with some friends - but a better car would be nice :) |
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| A hard day was over... | 2004-03-05 04:56:26EST |
 | Going home after making photos the entire day of some 300 girls (sic!) (it was a girl camp...). I couldn't even hold my camera stable... |
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